Making Eden Energy Medicine My Own

Why isn't it mine already?  A big part of my personal journey is finding myself in my life.  I was an excellent student in high school and college, figuring out what the professors wanted, getting the "A." It was a fairly simple formula.  Then, when I studied nutrition, homeopathy, and how to homeschool, I was bewildered by the different experts who taught seemingly contradictory truths about all these things, who were also "right," in their way.  I have moved through anguish, frustration and futility as I tried to navigate through the world of information, trying to find what works for me.  But a question I didn't ask for many years was, "what is my personal way?"  Instead, my inclination was to fit myself into a path that was outlined by others, and try to walk it with excellence.

Meeting Donna.    In 2003 I was in flux.  I had studied homeopathy for about fifteen years and had become disillusioned with it.  I was reading and listening to Carolyn Myss, especially enjoying her tapes called "Spiritual Madness."  At the library I saw a hard copy of Energy Medicine by Donna Eden, and since the forward was by Carolyn Myss, I figured it would be a good use of a dollar.  I drank in the whole book, feeling it fuel my enthusiasm and resonate with my deeper chords.  A few months later I was lucky to find that Donna was giving a free talk at an Orlando Hospital, and after that shot of inspiration I started taking classes with her as often as I could, and studied her video courses.  Always, an excellent student.

Whose is it?  The understanding and processes I learned in the Certification Program are treasures, but it doesn't exactly convey how Donna Eden practiced.  To pass the CP exams I had to answer questions "correctly," which recalled from my school days a subtle message that there's a right and wrong way, or more generally, that there is a "way" that EEM should look.  Even though Donna repeatedly encouraged us to know that we are evolving the work by our participation, and though she encouraged us to let our intuition guide us in the moment, no matter what that might look like, I still held pretty close to the structures I learned when I first started practicing.  I wanted to be an effective and skilled Eden Energy Medicine practitioner.  It was, me, being "that."

Part of the struggle for me is that I'm primarily a Water element, with secondary Earth, and when these get churned up, I get ... mud. 

    Water:   Everything is true in the flow of the infinite.

    Earth:   Solidify, take a step on the ground in a direction, be present with what is relevantly true here and now, for me. 

Both, and.  It takes a lot of effort to walk through mud.

The Structure of Communication.  The structures of EEM practice I learned in the CP were essential teachers, building solid understanding that guides aspects of my session work. Structures, which to me mean protocols and energy remedies, seem like translations of the communication of energy into language I can speak. As I spend more time living with a greater awareness of the living energies that we are, that we live within, I think that the elements of conscious partnership with energy adjust the structures naturally.  Energy finds and creates new ways to communicate, and new conversations are possible. 

Continuing to Find My Way. Playing with the idea that the language of energy is living and fluid helps me to loosen up about fitting myself into given structures and definitions of what it means for me to be an EEM practitioner. I am moving towards a practice of being present in myself, bringing my gifts and my allies/tools.  I love playing with the ingredients of energy, as if experimenting in a magical laboratory.  When I push past my doubts, my dialog with my deepest nature sounds like, "remind me of what I know, and show me something new ... let's play."

I don't always experience a lot of confidence in myself, partly because it still feels rather new to order my life from the inside-out, rather than fitting my work strictly into a form defined by someone else.  This phase of my life is like a renaissance, to first practice being present, and then allowing the outflowing of my actions and interactions to express eclectically through the tools I've learned and what the moment is teaching me.  It's a practice in process, and sometimes I feel more in tune than other times.

I do feel certain that energy wants to move towards joyful wellness and healing – wholeness.  I can listen, communicate with the energies, bring heart (encourage), and invite remembering – and trust in something beyond my personal self.  In that sense, I don't actually need much self-confidence, and I don't need to know "the way." 

One of my meditations is to float along a crystal clear river of infinite possibilities, guided and shown the way by gentle sandy banks and beautiful colorful stones.  Water naturally finding its way through the support, presence, and beauty of Earth. It helps me to trust myself and my journey.

Warmly,

Lyn

Comments

[Andie 97]

The idea is to learn enough of the techinques so that you can follow your intuition and experiment. It can be a fine line, but it is so rewarding.

It helps to hear from more people who are not afraid to try new Energy Medicine techniques.

Thanks for sharing.